Your Life is a Minor Detail to Me
Stop prioritizing stupid shit, you
moron.
The press handstand. The god among
men. My one true dream.
Well, besides all that other shit
I mentioned before in my two-thousand eighteen post.
I know that this is a somewhat
difficult dream, although only for a few reasons. I can definitely do it,
there’s no doubt or question about that. It is well within my physical and
mental capabilities to achieve this. So the question becomes, why hasn’t it
happened yet??? Well, when it all comes down to it:
Because I’m a lazy motherfucker,
that’s why.
I need to pony the fuck up. My
time, that is. I’ve wasted too many opportunities making excuses for myself
instead of making my dreams MANDATORY to achieve. It’s always somethings stupid
like ‘I have my period, I should rest’ or ‘I did this, this, and this today,
that’s enough right?’ or even ‘I’d rather be doing this. My long term goals are
unimportant to me in the face of momentary pleasure.’ to be the most blunt.
Yikes.
My whole life as an athlete I’ve
treated practices and meets as absolutely, positively, no exceptions, mandatory
in every way. It was scheduled so deeply in my life that it wasn’t even a
question whether or not I had free time or an opportunity to do something; the
time was already accounted for. I had to miss out on whatever got in the way,
and that was that. So why can’t I have the same structure and discipline for my
own goals and aspirations, especially when I’ve wanted it so badly and for so
long?
I don’t have an answer for that.
Maybe the taste of freedom from a previously immovable schedule is too much for
me. As much as I yearn for the simplicity of a stenciled out life, I really do
enjoy the idea of being able to do whatever I want, whenever I want. So I think
I’ve actually come up with a solution to my problem quite easily in writing
this:
I need to analyze my priorities.
What do I want?
Example: I now set aside a block
of time to work towards my 2018 goals. That time rolls around. If I’m not doing
what I planned to do, what am I currently doing instead?
Am I sitting on my couch watching
YouTube?
Yes?
Get
your bitch ass up and do what you promised you would.
Am I participating in a
limited-opportunity activity with people I don’t always get to see?
Yes?
Enjoy that time to the fullest. Create an opportunity to
compensate for the lost time.
Is whatever I’m doing/planning on
doing going to be more enjoyable than what the feeling of doing a press
handstand probably feels like?
No?
You’re
busy. Turn this date down.
I used the phrase “I don’t have
time for your little reindeer games” un-ironically once. While I didn’t
actually mind doing whatever I was being dragged into at the time, I liked this
idea of telling people off when they want to rope me into doing some pointless
activity that takes away from my ‘me time’. And no, I don’t mean THAT ‘me
time’. I mean someone distracting me from achieving what I want for myself. If
I’m not 100% on board for something, I see absolutely NO reason to do it. If I can
be doing something better with my time, making ME better with my time, why on
Earth would I want to waste it doing something that won’t bring me the same
kind of joy that having my goals would?
That’s some bullshit. I don’t have
time for your little reindeer games.
Some people are not going to like
that. But then again, if someone can’t respect your decisions, especially those
that will make you feel the most happy, fulfilled, and accomplished, then what
place should they have in your life to begin with?
#DrainTheSwamp #ReindeerGames
#PressHandstand2k18 #PonyUp
